In 1995, my younger sister, Patti, died suddenly while working as an English teacher in the northern Namibian bush. I felt moved to write about her, and thus began a quest that would stretch more than 15 years.
Over that time, my sister’s story became my story, too, told through the filter of blood and memory. "If this isn't living" is a memoir about lives intertwined and teased apart, about making peace with no longer having what I wanted so desperately.
I am seeking representation for this completed manuscript.
In this memoir, I explore silence through the lens of my young, tongue-tied son.
Shortly after turning 2, my little boy is diagnosed with childhood apraxia of speech, a disorder that leaves him unable to form words.
As I join him on his struggle toward words and speech, I begin to explore my own fraught history of silence.